Where did you go?

Hey, hey, hey!

So yeah, I seemingly just disappeared off the radar completely! So, first things first, apologies for my absence. Secondly, I’m back but with it being the run up to Christmas I may go quiet again, but I didn’t want to go quiet for a full two months.

So why I have I fallen off the radar you may ask well it’s long it’s complicated and a bit personal, so I’m not going into too many details.

The first thing that took place which seemed to be the start of a number of other issues, my husband had a personal issue for a variety of reasons I’m not going to go into, but I can say it wasn’t a health related issue. This was huge, rocked our world a bit, and meant that it took a lot of my time, energy, and attention away from the blog and quite a few other things, the resolution which was less than ideal has actually worked out in our favour though. This was very much the small details were less than ideal but for the bigger picture it’s been the right thing. Then a leak developed in my daughter’s bedroom, and due to my landlord’s original contractor no showing it meant we had to wait over a week for a resolution, which all due credit to my landlord they were wonderful, so I can’t lay the fault at their door. Then we’ve had three family members take ill, then my mum’s moving date has been postponed, it was originally anticipated she would be back in our hometown of Workington before Christmas but due to a number of issues this hasn’t happened (in some ways I’m quite pleased because I will miss her when she moves back to Workington, the good news is it’s a 50ish minute train ride away). And I’ve been making some changes within my own energy too, surrender is the key when we’re faced with so many challenges, and I am no different in my approach.

So, I was ready to kick the month off with a bang and then on 4th December, my husband stepped outside to the wash house for two minutes, accidentally left the kitchen tap on, so I went running to turn it off. However, my kitchen is a small kitchen, but I’m still grateful I have it, and the kitchen floor is laminate and wet footprints and laminate make for a slippery when wet kind of surface. Well, I skated across the limited floor knocked our very small kitchen bin flying into the bathroom, and I hit the deck *insert The Surfaris Wipeout here* landed on my tailbone, got myself up as quickly as possible because my kitchen is so small had Dave tried to open the kitchen door, he would have hit my head, which I was lucky not to have hit in the first place. So sat myself down, then went for a walk, and then a bit later on realised I couldn’t properly sit down, I giggled hysterically, which confused Dave, it was basically laugh or I’ll cry. So, I went to bed. And aside trips to the loo, I was in bed for a day and a half. Decided on Monday I had to get up, staying in bed any longer was not an option. So went to Whinlatter Forest to get our Christmas Tree, it was a bit of a strange day, we set off went to a petrol station on the way there, no fuel was to be had, so we had to turn around and head back to a different one. So then we set off on our journey again, picked our tree, a beautiful Nordmann Fir, we got into the house, got our tree stand, which was useless, the tree wouldn’t stand up straight. So, we visited Sainsburys and B&Q no tree stands left, we were about to head to the Range, and then Dave thought hang on what about the B&M that we’re just about to pass, they thankfully had the exact one we were looking for! So, on the way back I had a message from my eldest “Mum, can you do me a favour?” This favour involved us travelling to Penrith and back a 42 mile round journey to drop off tips for the team she works on as they were out for their Christmas Party. Went back home put the tree in the stand and left it for another two days before a light or bauble graced its branches. By this point I was coming down with a cold. So, on Thursday, I was back in bed, hydrating and using reiki to help clear the virus. Come Saturday morning I was over the worst of it so I was back up and about, but I became aware that the discomfort of the cold had blotted out the discomfort of the tailbone, so that’s back niggling away again, but I continue to use the reiki. This was all just one big lesson for slowing down, looking after myself and don’t get too busy doing other things that will in the end all be waiting for me. I don’t have to do everything alone.

Sometimes I have a tendency to be too independent and over work myself, this is a result of trauma from my childhood so it’s an issue I have to actively work on, I don’t need to be constantly busy in order to prove my worth, value or my usefulness. It also means I HATE being reliant on other people for anything, whether it be help, people’s time, energy, or money, so if I ever ask for help, I assure you it’s taken a lot of time for me to ask for the help, including probably a couple of sleepless nights. I will say, this is something I actively work on with my spirit team, angels, and reiki to help clear this trauma based programming. It’s not got the same grip of me that it used to, but it can rear its head from time to time. But my toolkit helps me challenge the thoughts and feelings and release it, and that it is the key to challenging anxious thoughts, feelings, and beliefs.

So, this is you pretty much all caught up, and me quite frankly breathing a sigh of relief, life gets bumpy sometimes but it’s about the way we handle the ride, we can cry, get exasperated, angry, annoyed, confused or al of the above, we just can’t live there, and it’s all about the Rise. And we have to take the rough with the smooth. Had this been 5 years ago I’m not sure how well I would have tackled the past 6-7 weeks. But thanks to family, friends, reiki, meditation, a lot of tea and crystals, we got through it!

So, I have a few updates for the end of the year, I have limited availability for the remainder of the year, I need to start and finish my Christmas shopping food and presents! And I need some time with my family, and I need to play Santa and go drop presents off for my nephews. My next available dates for healing or readings is 17th December, and 18th December. I am open only 3 days next week on 20th, 21st and 22nd December. I am then closed 23rd December -27th December. I reopen with limited hours on 28th-31st December. And I am then closed 1st – 4th Jan, normal hours will resume on 5th January.

So, if you’re feeling the Christmas anxiety, or pressure, why not book in for some rest and relaxation before Christmas/Yule. Remember you can book online if things are a bit too busy or you’re not in the area for healing, coaching, or readings. But if you can’t January is a great time to set some new intentions and pave the way for the year ahead.

I’m going to try and keep popping in and write to you all from behind my computer screen.

But in case I don’t manage, I hope and wish you all a Merry Christmas and Blessed New Year.

Marie