It was on the cards

My journey with tarot

From a young age I've been interested in all things spiritual, magical, esoteric and supernatural. I enjoyed the stories of the Roman, Norse, Greek and Egyptian gods and goddesses. I also enjoyed the stories I was told from the old testament of the bible in school.

My first encounter with tarot was an episode of the Simpsons when I was about 10 years old. Things such as Ouija boards, seances and tarot were not something to be used I was taught from an early age as you never know what you're bringing through. To some extent this is true particularly when you're talking about Ouija boards and seances and everyone has no experience, knowledge of communicating with spirit.

And moving into relationships as I was getting older it was most definitely thought and spoken of as "Woo Woo" or complete and utter nonsense therefore it was something that was not to be discussed.

After I entered into a relationship with Dave all the things of my old life were resurfacing. However I couldn't see myself as having any abilities, even though I'd had experiences I couldn't explain. But I was confident enough to say Dave had abilities as he too had had to hide away his abilities and learning too. I at most considered myself to be very empathic.

In 2017, I got ill. I went to a MBS fayre organised by a friend after being ill for 3 months. After having Reiki and a reading I literally cried for the rest of the day.

The next day I felt like I had the worlds worst hangover. But I was starting to move easier and Dave stated that amidst all the tears something had shifted. There was big changes that took place.

And he was right. So, one day I thought I want a set of tarot cards. This was a random thought as I'd never thought about tarot cards.

So they came, and I really took to using them I originally worked with them very closely with the book but I was advised to work with them without books just to go from what I get.

In this time I told my mum, who seemed horrified that I was using tarot cards, I reassured her I wasn't summoning demons and this made her a bit more comfortable.

I used the cards daily to journal and to learn spreads. This was my daily practice and it was part of my self healing process, as was meditation and reiki sessions. During this daily practice I connected really strongly with the Queen of Cups. I thought she looked fierce! She was connected, she was strong and she was confident. I think I loved her because it was what I aspired to me. I realised that I'd cut myself off from myself. So it was time to reconnect with me.

The queen helped me tap into my emotions and my intuition.

After a short amount of time working with my deck, I was encouraged to look at an alternative deck to the tarot deck.

I contemplated it but didn't jump right in, and then one night I dreamed about a deck of cards that I'd never seen. So, I took this as a sign to look at some angel cards, at this point I spotted the Angels of Atlantis deck,this was the deck I dreamed about!

So I ordered them and loved them, this then sparked my love of decks of card whether they were tarot, Oracle and affirmative cards.

I then went on to connect with cards about goddesses, crystals, spirit guides and dragons.

These cards allowed me to access mindfulness, Pendulums, learning reiki, access Bars, crystal healing, developing my coaching skills into life coaching.

I still use my cards regularly as these allow me to connect with spirit and self exploration. It also allowed me to connect with some gorgeous souls but for quite a while I was a closet reader. Even going to Fayres to work, I used to get cagey about my photos being made public as I didn't want certain people to know. I had to get over that fairly quickly!

In this time I learned the things I wasn't comfortable doing readings for - legal and health issues, I'm neither a solicitor or a doctor if you need this info please seek professional advice. I'll always deliver your news in as loving way as possible but sometimes spirit are blunt. And lastly if I'm with you face to face please interact with me, even if it's just OK, yes, no or even a nod of the head.

Over time, I gained more confidence and last year on 8th may last year as I was delivered the news that was the universe kicking me out of my comfort zone and doing what I was meant to do.

In this time I have connected to two other famine archetypes. Last year I connected with quite strongly the Empress, a strong woman of creation, love, beauty and passion. And recently I've started connecting with the high priestess, she has a lot to teach. I have a lot to learn but I also have things to teach.

These three women guide me in my daily life along with spirit. And I am incredibly grateful.